So where was I? ahh... yes

I really need God to consume my being, but my immature ways still hinder me. I mean I still struggle understanding the love of God, when in simple terms, there's no need to understand! He loves us unconditionally. well...just pray for me.

Everyday, I had sought for a brother or sister I could talk to, but came with no results. Never once thinking "hey, maybe God doesn't want me to just "look" for them, but to "understand", "acknowledge", or "love" them because I forget that God loves these people as much as he loves me. Anyway, its a minor detail into my social life at school. Other revelations have been brought to my attention since 10:00 this morning.

My future. Where is God taking me? Brother Andrew had no clue, but everyday...everyday things just worked out for him because God was so apparent in his life. How am I any different? Again, my failure to understand poverty and suffering physically and emotionally came to mind. If I truly, truly, were poor, would I possibly live my life for God even more? If I didn't always have food on the table, could I possibly understand God's power? Different circumstance, different people. yeah...well...I don't know what's in it for me in the future. Is my mission field in Houston? What am I going to do after college? Am I meant to be a missionary? Different questions keep popping into my head as the story of the book begins to unfold, and Brother Andrew continues to endeavour into the realities of his faith...yet still to be continued...more insights as I delve into the book more.