negative ambiguity.

i feel...

regret.
disappointed.
frustrated.
upset.

Things of distress accumulates and i don't know how to deal.

i was a cute toddler...

what ever happened?

i started to pull all-nighters and drink coffee.

good weekend.

I had an exceptional weekend. No classes on friday so my weekend started Thursday afternoon.

Robert came up due to the hurricane (hiricane, as he says it) and visited us in Waco. It was nice seeing him. I found him passed out at Eric's, so cuute! Then Jairo, Eric, Robert, and I went to Memorial to eat dinner. We met up with Eva, Karen, and Elaine! It was so fun! it's been awhile since i've laughed that much with friends. Afterwards, i went to ASA officer's meeting. Very productive, i'd say. Lasted for less than a hour, shortest meeting we had so far. Then on to Jairo's to watch movies. But everyone was passing out so the night was cut short.

The next morning, my dad calls me at like 8 and says they're in Waco because of the hurricane. I was so surprised and caught so off guard. Once they got in, it was really fun. I really do love my family. After lunch we all collapsed in the living room. We took a family nap =) Except once i woke up, i realize that i was the only one still asleep. My dad wanted to eat some good chinese food so they drove to dallas for dinner. Around 7:30, my dad calls and tells me to not eat dinner and wait until 9:00 because they were bringing back food for me. =) Hanna and I walked tigger. That was nice. Then Hanna and I enjoyed a good chinese meal. All in all, it was a nice day to relax and attempt to study.

The next day, I woke up to my mom's voice which was really weird considering i never audibly hear her voice in waco. So amazingly, i woke up at 9:30 without an alarm clock. Then my family left back to Houston. (how i miss my family already) Mika calls (!) and invites me to have lunch at Teriyaki Park. It was nice, kinda weird, but nonetheless nice. Then, my attempt to study with Robert...

Did not happen. I was really sleepy and wanted to take a nice nap. But i wanted to keep Robert company, but every time i'm close enough to turn a page of my reading, my head starts bobbing. After a while, i couldn't stand it, i went to bed. That night, I went to Praise Night at KUMC, which was relatively short, but enjoyable. Then we head over to Jairo's to wait for Sarah. The plan was to go bowling. I wasn't really up for it and kind of hesitant. But once i found out that Howie and Jen wanted to go as well, I was on the bandwagon. Bowling was actually a lot of FUN! Again, it's been awhile since i've had so much fun. All in all, I think Robert had played a big part of my having fun. thanks oppa.

Now, i'm studying for my finance test. wish me luck, for i need it greatly.

0 hours of sleep and counting...

sibling love.

i miss home.

distance does make the heart grow fonder.

it's 3 in the morning and i'm taking pictures of the bags under my small chinky eyes. will i wake up for class later today? I have yet to find out. Meanwhile, i think i'll talk about some good conversations i've had recently. I talked to Hanna about Christians the other day. We pointed out the divisions that we have in AFC and just people in general. For the first time in a while, I felt engaged and using my brain for some good use. I don't think we agreed on any concrete decision, but we did agree that we disagree in opinions about life. I had a good chat with Thomas. For the first time in a while, i voiced my honest opinion of him and he of me and it felt good. It's as if we connected through a few statements and a warm fuzzy gently passed through both of us. Last but not least, I talked with Jen. I talk with her all the time. But it's those conversations where we're both real with each other that make our relationship work. I care for her judgment/opinion and she cares for my judgment/opinion.

God is good. He gives grace through those that love.

sacrifice for accounting.

stress.