restless legs.

I'm diggin' music.

Lately, whenever music comes on, I just want to break out and dance. In the past, whenever there was music playing, I'd be shy and dance with my toes. I want to dance! I would love to take some kind of dancing class, either hip-hop or some type of ballroom dancing. That would be amazing.

I'm in the So You Think You Can Dance craaaze. I love that show. Every time I finish watching the show, I want to either go the gym, go run, or go to a club. I get an adrenaline rush from watching them dance! Therefore, it makes me wanna dance and burn off energy.

I miss dancing...

Lately, I've been having so many dreams. Dreams about friends, family, career, school, past relationships, and my game.

A lot of the dreams were very disoriented. Some are nice dreams for my ego. Some are upsetting dreams about my past. Some just don't make any sense.

But the dreams I wish to have, I wish were about you.

I feel sad. Sad that life is passing by so quickly. Soon, I'll have to grow up which is okay by me. But one day, I know that I'll be nostalgic about the time I'm in right now.

inadequate and depressed

My family means the world to me. Even though we don't express our love like other families do, I now know that I can't imagine living life without my parents or brothers. Even now, my dad is in China. I miss him. He really does spoil me with love.

Lately, I've been feeling so guilty. Because I do wonder if i've been wasting my parent's money and time at Baylor. I do wonder if they'll ever be happy for me. I do wonder if they'll ever be proud of me. Maybe that's why I feel so inadequate. I haven't ever made my parents proud. I haven't ever made my parents proud because of something I've done, maybe for who I am, but i've never accomplished anything significant in my life.

I want somebody that makes me feel good about myself. I need someone that makes me feel good about myself.