i've been depressed lately.
i can't really put my finger on why i am like this exactly. i feel so useless. i keep trying to put up this image of always being happy about life and what it has to offer. But really, what is it about this life am i really happy about? God tells us to rejoice always.
rejoice always.
i don't know what that means or i don't really know how to do that. I really don't know if God is on my side anymore.
i've been in so much stress and in so much pain that i'm so confused. Confused about what keeps me from jumping off a cliff. What makes me wake up each morning and forces me out of bed.