Friday, February 27, 2004

here i go again...

greetings.

i'm at the sub. i am filling out a questionnaire. i think i have the biggest headache known to man. richard just swung by. i am at loss for words. i am hungry again. can't wait until i get to sleep. grateful for the bible study. i love people. i love Jesus. i love God.

what motivates me to serve Christ, my love for him? or his love for me?

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Jesus, King of Angels by Fernando Ortega

Jesus King of angels heaven's light
Shine Your face upon this house tonight
Let no evil come into my dreams
Light of heaven keep me in Your peace
Remind me how You made dark spirits flee
And spoke Your power to the raging sea
And spoke Your mercy to a sinful man
Remind me Jesus this is what I am

The universe is vast beyond the stars
But You are mindful when the sparrow falls
And mindful of the anxious thoughts
That find me, surround me and bind me


With all my heart I love You Sovereign Lord
Tomorrow let me love You even more
And rise to speak the goodness of Your name
Until I close my eyes and sleep again

The universe is vast beyond the stars
But You are mindful when the sparrow falls
And mindful of the anxious thoughts
That find me, surround me and bind me


Jesus King of angels heaven's light
Hold my hand and keep me through this night

...a lullaby for the weary.

My apologies to the world. I haven't been sincere. I love you with my falliable heart. But, Jesus loves you more than you can imagine.

Monday, February 16, 2004

Tonight, Campus Crusade had a Q&A session about "what a guy wants." I want to list some questions and general answers that I got out of it.

What turns guys on?
her relationship with Christ: All the guys on the panel were Christian and actively pursuing the things of God. So, they find that their girl needs to be actively seeking after God and has a heart to serve God. Apparently, when they see that a girl loves God with her utmost, they see her very attractive.
What turns guys off?
superficiality - "dress to impress": The girls that do dress to show off only shows her insecurity. "No matter how less you dress, it doesn't show more of who you are." The guys really felt that the substance of a woman was her character and her personality and who she was as a person. They were one in saying how girls that show too much have a sense of needing attention. Therefore, a lack of security.
girls trying too hard: With girls' flirtacious tendencies, one guy felt as if they are trying to hard to catch his attention. There's no need to make such an effort to get a guy's attention. There are other means. For instance, talking to him, getting to know him, or simply being around him within a group setting.
What are the qualities that guys want in a girl?
confidence in her inward/outward beauty: a girl that has security in who she is and is very stable as a being.
a love for family: has a genuine heart for caring for her family reflects how she is with her man.
What do guys think about flirting? or what is flirting from a guy's point of view?
"singling out a guy/girl": Spending a great amount of time with one of the opposite sex.
Should girls initiate the relationship?
NO. guys wear the pants of the relationship. It was unanimous that the guys felt as if the girl SHOULD NOT pursue the relationship because all it means is that the guy is a "wuss weenie" and unable to be the leader of the relationship. If the girl actively engages, the role of the leader is reversed and it sets the tone of it. The guy usually becomes passive and the girl becomes frustrated and the relationship crumbles.
What defines dating?
Exclusiveness that heads into the direction of marriage, simply put. All the guys felt as if the term "dating" leads to marriage because there was really no point in dating for "fun" once in college.

the Q&A was 2 hours but it was sooo worth it. It was really nice to be exposed to what relationships are all about, considering I never really discussed it in high school. But ever since i've come to college, we never stop talking about the opposite sex and relationships and dating and yada yada yada. It's really made me put into perspective about where my heart is for God and to really think about my priorities and what I want in a man...and all that jazz.

This past V-day was great. I was able to get away from school for the weekend in a looooonnngg time. I got the chance to reevaluate a lot of things in my life. My priorities, my work, and especially my relationships. Not only with my girlfriends, but the friends I've made with the opposite sex. It is so intriguing how people work. We're woven into creatures that are inexplicably remarkable. I love that about humanity. I praise God that I've been formed so differently than the people around me. And i continue to marvel at God's work in all of us.

Though, I did hear some fantastic stories about Battle of the Sexes, CPR training, adventures in Kileen, and clubbing at Grahams. I wish I could have been at two places at one time.

Friday, February 06, 2004

anyone willing to take me to austin next weekend?

Sunday, February 01, 2004

you're reign is my desire.

Your Kingdom come, Your will be done.

please God. please God.

save me from my iniquities. i don't deserve you. i really don't. break me. shatter my pride. extinguish my anxiety.