surreal bodily functions.

I'll just be blunt. I have my period. I'm also sick. It's the most surreal feeling. My body aches. My body temperature is unstable. I feel bloated even though i didn't eat much. I've lost all sense of time. I miss a couple of classes.

Surprisingly...

I'm unexpectedly upbeat. God is good.

I think it's during these times, that i know he's here taking care of me. I know that he's humbling me. I know that he's teaching me. It's wonderful to know that someone cares.

thank you.

major withdrawal.

I have these periods where i just want to get away. I want to escape from the people, the problems, the drama, the work, the whatever. I think going to austin will help. Yes, i'll be in austin this weekend.

like whoa

this last weekend was outrageous.

Battle of the sexes: i'm really competitive. I give a lot of sass when i'm competing against guys. I suck at making boys smile. And, i can't keep a straight face for the life of me.

After party at Cheddar's: i like mucho. I went to eat with Richard, Phuong, Haena, and Eric. It was fun chit chatting and laughing at each other. I kind of broke my no-eating-after-10 thing, but i think those buffalo wings were worth it.

Ocean's 11: Hanna, Haena, and Phuong fell asleep. Eric was awake the whole time. I don't understand how he was so giddy during the movie.

Hanging out at Jairo/Robert's place: stayed up until 10...that's all i'm at liberty to say.

...i should never do that again.

it's all in my head.

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing to You.

I'm beginning to hallucinate.

Man, my body is beginning to twitch. It's pretty late or early. It feels like finals all over again. I really have no reason to stay up. I should just sleep. But i'm worried about my speech. I want to make it awesome. I want to make it perfect. I want to be awesome.

thanks robert for helping me out. i thought i was going nowhere. you gave me direction. =) so nice.

Today was surreal. I want to expand. But i don't want to depress you.

twilight zone

i don't mean to step on toes. It just kind of happens.

Suck.

I'm sorry! i'm sorry i'm stupid. i'm sorry i do things without thinking ahead of time. i'm sorry i say the wrong thing at the wrong time.

Lately, i've been brutally honest with people. I hate drama. I was hoping by telling people what's on my mind and heart, that i wouldn't have to hide things from them and that would rid of the drama in my life. Unfortunately, more keep rushing in.

How do i live a life of integrity which honors God and serves others??