survey

YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD, NO EXPLANATIONS.

1. Yourself: Contemplative
2. Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend: vague
3. Your Hair: dark brown
4. Your Mother: Beautiful
5. Your Father: Demanding
6. Your Favorite Item: Pooh
7. Your Dream Last Night: Sad
8. Your Favorite Drink: Water
9. Your Dream House: Modern
10. The Room You Are In: Shared
11. Your Pet: Tigger
12. Who You Are Now: Lazy
13. Where You Want to be in Ten years: Seattle
14. What You Want to be in Ten Years: Successful
15. What You're Not: Outgoing
16. Your Best Friend[s]: nonexistent
17. One of Your Wish list Items: happiness
18. Your Gender: female
19. The Last Thing You Did: walk
20. What You Are Wearing: boyish
21. Your Favorite Weather: cold
22. Your Favorite Book: Bible
23. The Last Thing You Ate: candy
24. Your Life: sucks
25. Your Mood: depressed
26. Your Room: cluttered
27. Your Sport: swimming
28. Your Hobby: sleeping
29. Your Job: student
30. Your Crush: korean

Maybe things are better left unsaid.

I want to tell you. I want to tell you what's in my head. I want to tell you what i think of you. I wish to share my innermost thoughts. I wish to give you details to my daily wonderings. I wish to convey to you the depth of love and hate i have for you. I wish you could hear the thoughts of my head. I wish you could see in my eyes the tears that have fallen for you. I wish you could tell me that you understand. I wish your ears were quick to listen to my aching heart. I want you to be open to my words. I want you to be the better person. I want God to shake you into sense. I want life to make more sense. I wish that feelings were shared. I wish you were here.

I wish you could see. The love. The hate. The good. The bad.

I wish you could hear me.

I wish things were easier. In the end, maybe it's better if things are unsaid.

Elderly grace.

A first, ladies and gentlemen.

Last night, I went out with a group of friends to a party in Austin. And for the first time, the very FIRST! I was the oldest in the group. It was a very surreal moment the time that i realized it. Now, the realization is all over the place. This year will be the year where a LOT of people will be looking up to me, regardless if i'm a leader or not. Just because I'm older than most of the students on campus, everyone will be watching me. It's different than being a senior in High School. Maybe, it's because i've tried to maintain a reputation since I stepped onto campus. Maybe, it's because I care about what people think more and more. Maybe, it's because experience comes with age. Maybe, it's because life seems to become more complicated the more things i learn.