Natalie Portman

...is so pretty.

While in college and during football intramurals, I once met a girl who resembled a lot like Natalie Portman.

I introduced myself and so did she. After a few short moments, I decided to say what I thought.

"Hey, so do you know who you remind me of?"
"Who?"
"You look a lot like Natalie Portman."
She glanced up at me and said nothing.
"Do you know who she is?"
"Yes," she replied and coyly said, "Thanks."

That was the only and last conversation I ever had with her. I wonder often if she took that as a compliment or something else. I would think the expected reaction is to be really flattered because many men find Natalie Portman quite beautiful and attractive.

Maybe she thought I was hitting on her...I dunno.

"the essence of our work as humans must be that it is done in conscious reliance on God's power, and in conscious quest of God's pattern of excellence, and in deliberate aim to reflect God's glory." John Piper

resolve to change

I'm at work.

And I've reached that point. That point where I need to move on. Yesterday, I received a call from a lady from Robert Half International concerning a position for a Staffing Manager at Accountemps. I was completely caught off guard because I hadn't been keeping track of where I've been applying to during my job search. I know that I applied to many through Robert Half, but I really didn't expect a response.

So, I was sitting at work talking on the phone to a potential employer. All the while, I was thinking, "good thing my coworker isn't here". The lady asked me some preliminary questions, told me about the position, asked me to do some homework, and to get back to her if I was interested. Being a Staffing Manager would be three-fold, sales, recruiting, and staffing, but a strong emphasis in sales.

Now, I'm praying hard. Whenever an opportunity such as this arises, a tidal wave of thoughts come and wash over me. I start to ask questions. Am I capable of sales? Do I want to do sales? Sales is my weakest point on my resume. How will my current employer receive the news that I'm leaving? How will I find someone to replace me? I have a lot of work to pass on to the person who fills my position. Will I be asked to go in and interview? Am I ready to go into my major? Will I remember all the things I learned in college? How will I be perceived and received at the interview?

Anxiety.

Lord, I am going to follow You. You make all things new and I will follow You forward. Thank You for this call. Thank You that this is an opportunity for me to experience. I depend on You for my future. Will You guide me in my next steps?

It doesn't hurt to try. If I do or don't get the job, I will still praise God for He alone is good and I look to Him for next steps.

Every year, I make new resolutions. This year, I simply resolve to change into the likeness of Christ.