greetings.

I'm at the computer lab right now. I needed my dose of internet usage once more before i head to bed. Today was so packed. My fridays are so packed or it always seems like it.

I had a English paper due today. The entire grading process of the class is based on the papers that we turn in. I didn't do as well as i would have liked to on my first paper. Therefore, I spent hard hours working on this second paper. I really do hope for at least a high B. That's all I ask for.

Something happened after my 8 oclock class. I won't further discuss it. But I just wanted to vent a little about it. I'm tired of being so sensitive about how people treat me. I often feel like i'm being taken advantage of. As a result, I put up a front of who I am. I pretend that things are okay and that I'm a tough chick that has no problems. God has definitely revealed to me why he has made me sensitive. He wants me to be sensitive to his Spirit and really get into the nitty gritty of the majesty of God. ANd along with that, being sensitive to those around me so I can serve better with my heart on the line, being a little vulnerable than needed. My pride does get hurt though. See, there's the contradiction in me.

Aiyah, I shouldn't dwell on it too much. just brush it off, grace. just brush it off.

Urm, after class was done at 1, I head back to the dorms. Haena from Atlanta IMs me and invites me to her dorm. I'm like what the heck, i'm wasting time anyway. I might as well kill time at her place. We hang out and chit chat for a bit. Then we bombard Eva and her privacy and hang with her. We started to watch "Hero" starring Jet Li. Didn't really finish it, but that's okay. Afterwards, we went to Chilli's too for dinner, then to the sub for AFC meeting. AFC was cool. Phara (sp?), intervarsity staff member, came to talk to us about community. I was really encouraged about what she said. She gave an example through Acts 2:42-47 and had some great stories to tell. I liked how she included the analogy of her sister. She said something along the lines of how she loved to talk to people about her younger sister. Her younger sister was cool, hip, and just so trendy. As well as having a passion for God. There was this one instance where her sister was going to visit her at work and Phara would go around to the staff and just let everyone know that her sister was coming and how great she was and how she was this and that.

Wouldn't it be great if we did the same with Jesus. What Jesus did cannot compare to any human behavior. Then why are we so hesitant to share about Him? If Jesus was and is such a great influence in our lives as a Christian, then why don't we talk about Him to everyone?

...Just a thought to consider. I really wanted to go up to Phara and be like "wassup homegirl, you did a bang up job on speaking to us today, yo" but i didn't. Too shy... But next time, I will fo sho.

We had a great time of worship. Or at least i did. I love singing. And singing to God is even better. I was really able to focus on Him for a long time now. Praise God! =) After the meeting, a BIG group of us went "putt-putting" as Jessie refers to it (if you were there, I was giggling about it...if you heard me) urm, putt-putting was fun. I played with Kristina. I'm so glad I played putt putt with her. She's just such a joy to be around and she makes me happy. Besides, having to wait on people could have reallly tested my patience.

AFTER putt-putting (hehe), we went to Aaron's for food and movie. He has a super nouuice place. We watched Office Space. I've seen that movie so many times. And yet, I still laugh at the same parts. Yeah, some of the stuff is just really inappropriate. But yeah. not the greatest movie to go to sleep after....well at least for me...

So now, I'm here. In the lab. I hope Julia and Michael are having a good time in Austin! okie dokie

the end.