I have thoughts that are going at the speed of about 100 miles per minute. I have all these observations and desires, but do I actually follow through with them? Am I supposed to idly wait for an opportunity to fall into my laps? Or do I make opportunities for myself? Is there ever a time where things are comfortable enough for me to settle down? Do I wait or do I act? Will I act? How will I respond? Do I respond to the call? What is the call? At this point in time where life is so uncertain and fragile, how will I respond to the cup that has been given me?

Do I let go and let God? At which point do I let go of the things that I've held onto for so long? To leave that place of comfort and be used fully in God's purposes and plans. Is it worth it all? Are these desires and longings really from God? And say these are from God, will I be alone in all of this? Does anybody else have these same passions? Are these God-driven purposes? Or are they selfish, fleshly desires to make myself look like I'm entitled to my own self-righteousness?