Desperate longing.

God,

I can't see the future. I don't really know how to make a decision on my own. I never have. I always needed someone to lead me. I always needed someone to tell me what to do, so that I can follow their leading. As much as I want to think I was and am independent and can fend for myself, I am completely lost. I'm not sure where my life is going. Those desires that I thought were once in my grasp are seemingly slipping away.

I am frustrated and I am torn, once again. And suddenly am lost.

But I know that you are here. It says in Your Word that you have plans for me. Lord, you have plans to prosper me. You've given me this life, so that I can honor You in all that I do. God, would you lead me? I pray for direction. A new direction. I may not know where I am going and I may not know how I'm getting there. But you are my mode of transportation, you are my destination, and ultimately, you are my companion.

God, please renew my soul.