I'm afraid of what will happen when i am alone.

it's weird. I find that whenever i'm alone, i become my own worst nightmare. I revert back to my old sad nature. I begin to think about what has happened in my past, afraid of what i'll remember. When i'm alone, i'm alone with my thoughts, my selfish desires, my lustful flesh.

I fear being alone.

I have to recognize that when i'm alone, only God is there with me. God is not only found in me when i'm with people. But He's probably with me the most when i seek after Him in the quiet stillness of my aching heart.

I can't stand it anymore. I can't lie to myself nor can i lie to God. I can't live without God and his majesty.