I think...

I think i've become legalistic. Like one of the pharisees. Lately, I realize that I have become more judgmental in the midst of situations more than generous. Though it may not be verbally displayed, my heart still burns with that bitterness and resentment. I mean no one has made me specifically mad. I have this tendency to take things out of proportion. It's truly sad. I know I'm not the only person who does this. But I don't like that part of me.

At one end, I hate my simple mind where things are black and white. Then at the same time, I hate it when things are plain and have no extravagant meaning. I dunno. I don't know where I'm going with this.

Arg. I just want life to be...i don't know. Dazzling. Adventurous. Romantic. Fairy Tale. Where I fall into a deep hole, and a whole new world is laid before my eyes. Where I slay a ten foot philistine with just my slingshot. Where I kill an entire army with words of my mouth. Where the man of my dreams comes riding through the night to lay a kiss to awaken me from my deep slumber. =)

But poo. None of that has happened to me.