I feel inadequate.

DAH, why does depression seep through my veins like blood. I hate it with a passion. Down with depression. Poo, poo.

Oh God, let this vessel come clean before your throne. Empty out the scum, the sewage, the poo in my body, mind, and soul. Renew my mind to yours alone. Let me seek you with the entirety of my heart for this child wants to be yours alone. I just don't know how to do it anymore, God. I want a taste of heaven within the grasp of my hands. I thirst to know that all of life comes at the altar, kneeling before the cross. Remind me how sweet your presence is just in your glory, Oh God. Burn within my heart a passion that yearns for your very heart, Lord God. I want to be you. I love to be you. Oh cradle me in your arms of love. Make known to me that you are my Master and I am your servant. God, you are my everything. Please strike me down before I rebel your gracious name. Destroy all of who I am if ever I choose the path of the wicked.

All that matters is you...Let me KNOW that again, Father. just as i know right from left, oh God. Make it a great reality of being chosen to serve you. God, I've tried. I've failed. All I want is you. So wash me clean. cover me.

Oh Lord, love me.