i just realized why i've been so nervous about college. I have many friends at Clements who are overachievers. People who have a dream to become biomedical engineers, surgeons, doctors, actors, you name it...

I felt intimidated. I felt like i couldn't compete. I was this "asian" girl that had a reputation as a "smart" kid to have dreams and ambitions for the future. To aim high. To reach for the stars. But to get there, there are conditions. You must be this, you must do this, you must have this... 6.0 gpa, 1600 SAT, National Merit Semifinalist, charisma, character, intellect..etc. It was frustrating. I kept pushing aside the idea that I can aim high while being on God's side. And so i neglected this idea that I would be able to make it into college. I failed to see the future in the Almighty's hands. It was a shame. All that time wasted because i didn't have faith.