"He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouting." Job 8:21

Sometimes, you just gotta scream.

I was reading Job today at school. Man, this guy is really depressed. I can see why. His entire world was turned upside-down.
"I loathe my very life; therefore I will give free rein to my complaint and speak out in the bitterness of my soul." Job 10:1

As I was reading, I realized that I don't have it that bad. There were times, however, that I could really really relate to what he was going through. When I read it, I was like, "Whoa, sounds kind of like... me."

Let me clarify. I'm pretty sure there's a lot of brothers and sisters that have called upon the name of the Lord with bitterness and resentment because of the excruciating amount of torture and pain that we've all been through. Well, this guy did, at first, but in the end he put his flesh aside, and lift the Lord's name in high regard.

That's what we do. We go through shit. We see a way out, which is God's mercy and grace. And then we're all praising God.

God wants us to turn from our ways, our flesh, and serve Him, even when we go through so much poop. For me, it's been so damn repetitive. It's the sin. Someone once said to me, to sin is insanity, you keep doing it over and over and over again, but it never appeases you, it never satisfies you, it only lures you away from your Creator. It's kind of like banging your head against the wall. You do it once, and then you say, "ow!" But like the idiot that you are, you go back and bang your head again. Over and over...

So I put into account that though I know that God is the ONLY means of satisfaction, I know I'll end up sinning again, and then I shall repent and repent and repent until the day that I die. *sigh* When will this cycle ever end.

But I rejoice

Again, I say rejoice. For the Kingdom of heaven is near.