Long time no see my good friends... =)
Nothing new to post. Nothing of too much importance running through my mind. Just hanging out and having a grand ol time. I really want to take a road trip. I offered my suggestion to my mama. She said, "Where would you go, then?" That's a good question indeed. I don't know where. Just somewhere not here.
I've been watching a lot of movies in the last week or two. I am a super freak for movies. I have watched LOTR 3 times since it's opening. And I may go for a fourth when the opportunity strikes. I have yet to understand the words of the treebeard. It sounds like jibberish to me. hehe
aiye. I had a good Christmas. yes indeedy.
Saturday, December 28, 2002
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
You guys! I had my first all-nighter for the first TIME!! WOWZAS! Hamlet acting company was meeting from 8 to 12 and from then until 5 I worked on my government project. *excited* So I am a bit off and looney. I just need my beauty sleep and then i'll be my old proper self again.
Man, so much has happened that I'm just too excited to go to sleep yet. Okay, so yesterday, during 3rd period, we were rehearsing our play. As the bell was about to ring, we had to decide when and where are next meeting should take place. Alicia said something about she needing to get ready for a mission trip, but anytime after 8 would be good. I suddenly got excited and wanted to ask her about it. So, I asked casually, "Where are you going?"
"Papua, New Guinea. It's in the Australia area. I'm going with this organization called Wycliffe"
"Really, wow"
"Yeah, it's cool. I'm so excited"
"What do you usually do?" [making light conversation]
"We usually do a drama that shares the gospel aanndd some other stuff, but mostly just sharing about Christ"
"Man, that's exciting. I actually went to China this last summer."
[Pause]
"Who did you go with?"
"Teen Mania"
[a shriek comes from her mouth] "FOORRREALLL? Me too!, I mean Wycliffe is newly added this year to Teen Mania. Man! [high five] That is soo awesome! You know, like it's really hard to find someone here who has been on a mission trip to Teen Mania. Oh, this makes me so happy."
[I nod excitedly in agreement...still surprised about her reaction]
We talked nonstop until the bell rang for the next class. Gee Golly Whiz. That was soo coool. AND after school, we had to rehearse again. After the rehearsal, she and I talked more about God and mission trips and God's calling and stuff. It was so refreshing that I couldn't contain my excitement. I told her over and over again how I had longed for somebody that can understand what I went through close to home. AND now I do!! YAY!!!
So that's that...
Today, we performed the play that we've been practicing so hard on that I've lost sleep because of it. =) But anyway, MAAAANNNN. It was sooo fun. I wish I can record the play. It was hilarious. What we were supposed to do with our acting companies was basically to pick a scene and use a theme to accentuate it. What we chose to do was a Batman theme, where the hero is obviously, Batman, with his sidekick, Robin, and the villians of Joker, Cat-woman, and Penguin. Oh and the Butler, Alfred is in it too. We just replaced the characters to make it more interesting, but still saying the same Hamlet lines and names. [You may not have gotten what i had previously typed, so if you want explanation, do ask]
The play itself was fantastic. On Monday afternoon, half of our group did not show up for the meeting, and none of our props were set, and lines weren't memorized. Things didn't seem to look to bright. But Monday night, we spent 3 hours organizing the logistics and then Tuesday night, 4 hours perfecting. And today, it was awesome. After school, EHS had a meeting. My friend Deeba came up to me and said something about me. Our teacher has been praising [not exactly, but more like complimenting] my acting performance to all her classes. I was like, "Whaaa?" I was literally clueless. When I went into the room, Mrs. Spradley was like "GRACE, I'm so proud of you. You did an amazing job! I mean I would expect Alicia to do her part, but YOU wow you did so goood. I'm so proud of you." [I'm sure i was blushing by now] So yeah. During my visit, she'd talk about something. And then she looked at me, and she would stopped talking and smile and say "Grace, you really blew me away!" The first time I did well in a group project. FIRST TIME. Yeah, seriously, i don't work well with groups. And this is literally the first time I had fun at what I was doing and being productive. Oh, man that's a good feeling.
So yeah, the last 48 hour period has been action packed. I must retire and let mine eyes take rest. And I will embrace it freely. Good night, sweet prince and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
Man, so much has happened that I'm just too excited to go to sleep yet. Okay, so yesterday, during 3rd period, we were rehearsing our play. As the bell was about to ring, we had to decide when and where are next meeting should take place. Alicia said something about she needing to get ready for a mission trip, but anytime after 8 would be good. I suddenly got excited and wanted to ask her about it. So, I asked casually, "Where are you going?"
"Papua, New Guinea. It's in the Australia area. I'm going with this organization called Wycliffe"
"Really, wow"
"Yeah, it's cool. I'm so excited"
"What do you usually do?" [making light conversation]
"We usually do a drama that shares the gospel aanndd some other stuff, but mostly just sharing about Christ"
"Man, that's exciting. I actually went to China this last summer."
[Pause]
"Who did you go with?"
"Teen Mania"
[a shriek comes from her mouth] "FOORRREALLL? Me too!, I mean Wycliffe is newly added this year to Teen Mania. Man! [high five] That is soo awesome! You know, like it's really hard to find someone here who has been on a mission trip to Teen Mania. Oh, this makes me so happy."
[I nod excitedly in agreement...still surprised about her reaction]
We talked nonstop until the bell rang for the next class. Gee Golly Whiz. That was soo coool. AND after school, we had to rehearse again. After the rehearsal, she and I talked more about God and mission trips and God's calling and stuff. It was so refreshing that I couldn't contain my excitement. I told her over and over again how I had longed for somebody that can understand what I went through close to home. AND now I do!! YAY!!!
So that's that...
Today, we performed the play that we've been practicing so hard on that I've lost sleep because of it. =) But anyway, MAAAANNNN. It was sooo fun. I wish I can record the play. It was hilarious. What we were supposed to do with our acting companies was basically to pick a scene and use a theme to accentuate it. What we chose to do was a Batman theme, where the hero is obviously, Batman, with his sidekick, Robin, and the villians of Joker, Cat-woman, and Penguin. Oh and the Butler, Alfred is in it too. We just replaced the characters to make it more interesting, but still saying the same Hamlet lines and names. [You may not have gotten what i had previously typed, so if you want explanation, do ask]
The play itself was fantastic. On Monday afternoon, half of our group did not show up for the meeting, and none of our props were set, and lines weren't memorized. Things didn't seem to look to bright. But Monday night, we spent 3 hours organizing the logistics and then Tuesday night, 4 hours perfecting. And today, it was awesome. After school, EHS had a meeting. My friend Deeba came up to me and said something about me. Our teacher has been praising [not exactly, but more like complimenting] my acting performance to all her classes. I was like, "Whaaa?" I was literally clueless. When I went into the room, Mrs. Spradley was like "GRACE, I'm so proud of you. You did an amazing job! I mean I would expect Alicia to do her part, but YOU wow you did so goood. I'm so proud of you." [I'm sure i was blushing by now] So yeah. During my visit, she'd talk about something. And then she looked at me, and she would stopped talking and smile and say "Grace, you really blew me away!" The first time I did well in a group project. FIRST TIME. Yeah, seriously, i don't work well with groups. And this is literally the first time I had fun at what I was doing and being productive. Oh, man that's a good feeling.
So yeah, the last 48 hour period has been action packed. I must retire and let mine eyes take rest. And I will embrace it freely. Good night, sweet prince and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
Sunday, December 08, 2002
Mkay...gonna finish my dream before i do my homework...goes to show my set priorities, doesn't it?
Suddenly, we were in school, working on our project.
Before diving into working at getting everything together, we talked and goofed off for a great deal of time. There is this one guy at my school. He is very tall and attractive. In the dream, he talked to me as if he had known me since forever. I felt giddy and childish. I was excited that he even knew i existed. The strange thing is he just appeared into the dream. He's not even my group or to say the least, in my class! Anyway, so yeah. And then the sign ups for the time we were to present our project were posted, and everybody that had our teacher, came out of nowhere. So the reunion went on.
After awhile, something of great importance had to be shared because a student told everybody to get into a circle, which was impossible because the teacher has over 150 students and we were scrunched up in a room the size of one room apartment. A great amount of tension formed just from the student talking. A great deal of anxiety fell upon me while in the dream. As the student was introducing the news, I felt great sadness within my soul, but I hadn't even heard the news. And I never actually did. The dream kinda cut off right then and there.
I was then in a subway. I had a lanky guy sitting to the right of me. He was my friend but I didn't recognize him. I suppose maybe he was younger than me and just accompanying me. To the left of me sat a man with a very dark complexion (sp?) and dirty clothes. He was rather built and in his mid forties. He looked very dangerous and seemed rather distraught and weary of his surroundings. While my friend and I were talking, the man kept interrupting us. He was annoying us. And as the conversation with my friend had gotten more serious on spiritual matters, the man burst into rage and yelled at the both of us for believing in God or Jesus even. And so my friend sat to the left of me and tried to calm down the man and talked to him about the divinity of Christ and the power of God. But the man was just laughing in our faces making no notion of being polite or kind in any way. I was outraged. I didn't understand why he couldn't just listen to someone talk.
And so, I blurted out how he should just shut up and listen. And then I told him, I was sorry. I didn't mean to tell him to shut up and I said, "Look, God is real. I am living proof of it. Please understand..." The man came at me with his fist and i tried to cover my friend. But he didn't hit neither of us. Instead he disappeared. He was gone. As if he had some power of being invisible. Suddenly, a man sitting two benches down, had stood up, but then I realized he wasn't. He was being held up. Then a shot went off and blood began to form at the victim's stomach. He was dead.
I felt fear run through the blood from my feet to my head. I was so petrified at what the invisible man could do next. He could do the exact same to me. Perhaps he did that to show me my fate. The fear of not knowing what could possibly hurt me due to his invisibility scared me so much that i could not bear it.
Suddenly, we were in school, working on our project.
Before diving into working at getting everything together, we talked and goofed off for a great deal of time. There is this one guy at my school. He is very tall and attractive. In the dream, he talked to me as if he had known me since forever. I felt giddy and childish. I was excited that he even knew i existed. The strange thing is he just appeared into the dream. He's not even my group or to say the least, in my class! Anyway, so yeah. And then the sign ups for the time we were to present our project were posted, and everybody that had our teacher, came out of nowhere. So the reunion went on.
After awhile, something of great importance had to be shared because a student told everybody to get into a circle, which was impossible because the teacher has over 150 students and we were scrunched up in a room the size of one room apartment. A great amount of tension formed just from the student talking. A great deal of anxiety fell upon me while in the dream. As the student was introducing the news, I felt great sadness within my soul, but I hadn't even heard the news. And I never actually did. The dream kinda cut off right then and there.
I was then in a subway. I had a lanky guy sitting to the right of me. He was my friend but I didn't recognize him. I suppose maybe he was younger than me and just accompanying me. To the left of me sat a man with a very dark complexion (sp?) and dirty clothes. He was rather built and in his mid forties. He looked very dangerous and seemed rather distraught and weary of his surroundings. While my friend and I were talking, the man kept interrupting us. He was annoying us. And as the conversation with my friend had gotten more serious on spiritual matters, the man burst into rage and yelled at the both of us for believing in God or Jesus even. And so my friend sat to the left of me and tried to calm down the man and talked to him about the divinity of Christ and the power of God. But the man was just laughing in our faces making no notion of being polite or kind in any way. I was outraged. I didn't understand why he couldn't just listen to someone talk.
And so, I blurted out how he should just shut up and listen. And then I told him, I was sorry. I didn't mean to tell him to shut up and I said, "Look, God is real. I am living proof of it. Please understand..." The man came at me with his fist and i tried to cover my friend. But he didn't hit neither of us. Instead he disappeared. He was gone. As if he had some power of being invisible. Suddenly, a man sitting two benches down, had stood up, but then I realized he wasn't. He was being held up. Then a shot went off and blood began to form at the victim's stomach. He was dead.
I felt fear run through the blood from my feet to my head. I was so petrified at what the invisible man could do next. He could do the exact same to me. Perhaps he did that to show me my fate. The fear of not knowing what could possibly hurt me due to his invisibility scared me so much that i could not bear it.
Saturday, December 07, 2002
I woke up today with a massive headache. blah.
Last night, Michael and I were watching television on his bed. And like I was so lazy that i decided to just sleep in his bed with him. His bed is massive so it fits both of us... hehe. Anyway, I had such a weird dream. Very bizarre, as all my dreams are. bizarre and frightening...
[background information: Right now, I'm working with a total of 5 other people on a school project. I think they're in the dream. How do I know that? Well, we were working on the project in the dream. And, in China, we took the subway EVERYWHERE we went. And a lot of us would minister to them on the train.]
Four of us were agents of the US government. We entered a building with great amount of chairs were there. The chairs were soaked. They were soaked with urine. [shudders vehemently]. We suspected the people who occupied the building peed on chairs as some kind of culture? AND get this, the entire time, I was thinking, "How do they go number 2?"...
We ran down the hall of the drafty building towards a room. The room had a table with a massive pile of what seemed like sugar. However, it wasn't. It was diamonds. Diamonds the size of sugar. [LOL] Anyway, we frantically put the diamonds in bags that magically appeared into our hands and we ran out of the building as if the true criminals were running after us. Right when we reached our car, the building exploded.
Suddenly we were in school, working on our project.
[Part II will come shortly]
Last night, Michael and I were watching television on his bed. And like I was so lazy that i decided to just sleep in his bed with him. His bed is massive so it fits both of us... hehe. Anyway, I had such a weird dream. Very bizarre, as all my dreams are. bizarre and frightening...
[background information: Right now, I'm working with a total of 5 other people on a school project. I think they're in the dream. How do I know that? Well, we were working on the project in the dream. And, in China, we took the subway EVERYWHERE we went. And a lot of us would minister to them on the train.]
Four of us were agents of the US government. We entered a building with great amount of chairs were there. The chairs were soaked. They were soaked with urine. [shudders vehemently]. We suspected the people who occupied the building peed on chairs as some kind of culture? AND get this, the entire time, I was thinking, "How do they go number 2?"...
We ran down the hall of the drafty building towards a room. The room had a table with a massive pile of what seemed like sugar. However, it wasn't. It was diamonds. Diamonds the size of sugar. [LOL] Anyway, we frantically put the diamonds in bags that magically appeared into our hands and we ran out of the building as if the true criminals were running after us. Right when we reached our car, the building exploded.
Suddenly we were in school, working on our project.
[Part II will come shortly]
Thursday, December 05, 2002
Only you...can shake the mountains
Only you...can calm the oceans
Only you...can hold the heavens in the palm of your hand
Tell me who...can look inside me
Tell me who...can purify me
Tell me who...still loves me deeply
More than i understand...only you
With a word you spoke the heavens into place
you scattered the stars and gave the earth its frame
what is man that you should touch him with your grace and
who am I Oh Lord that you should know my name
Only you...can calm the oceans
Only you...can hold the heavens in the palm of your hand
Tell me who...can look inside me
Tell me who...can purify me
Tell me who...still loves me deeply
More than i understand...only you
With a word you spoke the heavens into place
you scattered the stars and gave the earth its frame
what is man that you should touch him with your grace and
who am I Oh Lord that you should know my name
Wednesday, December 04, 2002
One of our neighbor's cat walked unto the sidewalk, picked up the newspaper, and slowly walked back to the house. The cat brought the paper in. That was so strange and so cute at the same time.
I guess I should update on what's going on in my head cause that's what I usually do.
hmm...In most cases, I'd be in a dilemna or am seriously depressed or just utter absent-mindedness, but none of that for me. Just going with flow. Can't say that's a good thing nor bad. But I LOVE COLD WEATHER. YAY! Praise God!
I guess I should update on what's going on in my head cause that's what I usually do.
hmm...In most cases, I'd be in a dilemna or am seriously depressed or just utter absent-mindedness, but none of that for me. Just going with flow. Can't say that's a good thing nor bad. But I LOVE COLD WEATHER. YAY! Praise God!
Friday, November 22, 2002
i finished my paper...whew! that's a relief considering i decide to do it the very last minute though i promised myself i would do it during the weekend before thanksgiving. =/ oh well. I got an email today from Nathan. Yay! he's one of the guys that i got kinda close to on the trip? or maybe not. See, the problem was...on the trip...i was afraid of getting close to guys
1. because I'm afraid of not being accepted
2. because I'm afraid that I might get more involved than I want to be
3. because I've never been close to guys. (oh my, that's funny)
Anyway, he's a great encourager. He reminded me of one occasion...
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July 3, 2002
_____, China
I'm irritated with these rude train attendants. Just because we're Americans doesn't mean they can treat us like crap. Anyway, we're going back to Hong Kong tonight. Man, one of the ladies. She made my heart melt. She loves God so much and you could see the light in her eyes. She consistently talked to the girls about the glory of God and how magnificent his ways are and if they believed they will know so much more than they'll ever know. She helped me translate sometimes, not saying she spoke English but sometimes God would give her understanding through my horrible chinese to kinda retranslate to them =) She is so darling that i wish i could take her home with me, but I can't. ANyway, tonight she escorted us to the train station and wouldn't leave until she saw that i got on the train. She wouldn't let go of my hand. At one point she cried. She told me that she didn't want me to go. And that since we've come she has confirmation that her faith is real, so tangible because of our love for them and for God shines so brightly through our ministry. Because often times, the restrictions put unto the church by the government scares her. my gosh, you don't know how much impact you can have man. I never knew.
She says she'll send me tea as a gift. She made a big deal about getting my address, my phone number, and any way of contact. Bless her heart.
This one attendant just came by and asked if i wanted some tea. Wow, how nice.
(12 hours later: 4 in the afternoon)
Man, man o man. I don't get why God uses me. I am so horrible at Chinese. I wish Mike had been here. So that one attendant? she is really nice. She offered me some really really good tea. I have a picture of it. Anyway, Ben saw i had a cup and wanted one as well. IT WAS REAL GOOOOD. Anyway. The point of me journaling again is i witnessed to the attendant. She asked me about us and so i answered. And knew God was opening another door and I just had to step on in. She had the idea that Jesus is this man of darkness where he wears a black cloak and haunts you. I thought maann. people are deceived man. I told her no no no. Jesus is nothing like that. I told her about him. and then she started to ask me about how Christ has affected me, so here goes my testimony in indecent chinese...and I think she understood but kinda semi-believed. Like believed it to be true but didn't think it was for her. and then she asked about the Boys and asked "all of them believe as you do?" I told her the whole train car does =) and so to prove to her, i brought a couple of the guys to witness with me cause i was running out of things to share cause i kinda think about the basic gospel and it's sometimes so simple that people want to make it complicated. It was so fun talking to her and just letting her know. Man, just that GOd is real and she, only she herself can experience God.
The boys gave scripture. Beau shared a bit of his testimony and he, man, he's a great speaker. Full of power and confidence in Christ. The girl just kept spewing questions out one after another and i was so glad that they were there to help me provide personal and textual evidence. I have to say that that was one of my favorite times of sharing Jesus.
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1. because I'm afraid of not being accepted
2. because I'm afraid that I might get more involved than I want to be
3. because I've never been close to guys. (oh my, that's funny)
Anyway, he's a great encourager. He reminded me of one occasion...
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July 3, 2002
_____, China
I'm irritated with these rude train attendants. Just because we're Americans doesn't mean they can treat us like crap. Anyway, we're going back to Hong Kong tonight. Man, one of the ladies. She made my heart melt. She loves God so much and you could see the light in her eyes. She consistently talked to the girls about the glory of God and how magnificent his ways are and if they believed they will know so much more than they'll ever know. She helped me translate sometimes, not saying she spoke English but sometimes God would give her understanding through my horrible chinese to kinda retranslate to them =) She is so darling that i wish i could take her home with me, but I can't. ANyway, tonight she escorted us to the train station and wouldn't leave until she saw that i got on the train. She wouldn't let go of my hand. At one point she cried. She told me that she didn't want me to go. And that since we've come she has confirmation that her faith is real, so tangible because of our love for them and for God shines so brightly through our ministry. Because often times, the restrictions put unto the church by the government scares her. my gosh, you don't know how much impact you can have man. I never knew.
She says she'll send me tea as a gift. She made a big deal about getting my address, my phone number, and any way of contact. Bless her heart.
This one attendant just came by and asked if i wanted some tea. Wow, how nice.
(12 hours later: 4 in the afternoon)
Man, man o man. I don't get why God uses me. I am so horrible at Chinese. I wish Mike had been here. So that one attendant? she is really nice. She offered me some really really good tea. I have a picture of it. Anyway, Ben saw i had a cup and wanted one as well. IT WAS REAL GOOOOD. Anyway. The point of me journaling again is i witnessed to the attendant. She asked me about us and so i answered. And knew God was opening another door and I just had to step on in. She had the idea that Jesus is this man of darkness where he wears a black cloak and haunts you. I thought maann. people are deceived man. I told her no no no. Jesus is nothing like that. I told her about him. and then she started to ask me about how Christ has affected me, so here goes my testimony in indecent chinese...and I think she understood but kinda semi-believed. Like believed it to be true but didn't think it was for her. and then she asked about the Boys and asked "all of them believe as you do?" I told her the whole train car does =) and so to prove to her, i brought a couple of the guys to witness with me cause i was running out of things to share cause i kinda think about the basic gospel and it's sometimes so simple that people want to make it complicated. It was so fun talking to her and just letting her know. Man, just that GOd is real and she, only she herself can experience God.
The boys gave scripture. Beau shared a bit of his testimony and he, man, he's a great speaker. Full of power and confidence in Christ. The girl just kept spewing questions out one after another and i was so glad that they were there to help me provide personal and textual evidence. I have to say that that was one of my favorite times of sharing Jesus.
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Thursday, November 21, 2002
"There are 15 unread Mail messages in your box"
I like getting emails a lot. They make me feel like I'm important and special.
Alicia wasn't there today for our Hamlet scene. AND, the guys kept saying "Jesus Christ" as if they were cursing Him. Boy, was I offended. I didn't talk unless I had to say my lines. Other than that. I just kept thinking...Why do they say that? Why? Is it like part of their vocabulary...and don't they put into consideration that it just might be offensive? In the past, people say things, you know? and they hurt whether or not you let it get to you. It's just there and it's in the back of your mind. At the moment, you may not be offended, but then later on, things start to click in yo head, and you think, "HEY, that's not cool" I say that a lot throughout the entire day at school. There's just too much poo at my schoo.
I like getting emails a lot. They make me feel like I'm important and special.
Alicia wasn't there today for our Hamlet scene. AND, the guys kept saying "Jesus Christ" as if they were cursing Him. Boy, was I offended. I didn't talk unless I had to say my lines. Other than that. I just kept thinking...Why do they say that? Why? Is it like part of their vocabulary...and don't they put into consideration that it just might be offensive? In the past, people say things, you know? and they hurt whether or not you let it get to you. It's just there and it's in the back of your mind. At the moment, you may not be offended, but then later on, things start to click in yo head, and you think, "HEY, that's not cool" I say that a lot throughout the entire day at school. There's just too much poo at my schoo.
Monday, November 18, 2002
Friday, November 15, 2002
you complete my being
all of you makes more of me
I know that things aren't the same
but we can work it out
just you and me
for the universe is ours
the world belongs to us
no one, no thing
can come between
hollow life offers me a plate
an offer so tempting, so appealing
i couldn't refuse
Oh, forgive my heart, my sin
shoved deep as the arrow into the skin
For I come to know
the spirit runs free within me
needs to flee from captivity
Carpe diem he said, a rube
I had too believe it so
Fie on't, Ah fie, antiquity
a dagger to my soul
Oh, I fall helpless
in hope of a loving embrace
dear one, i know not what i do
forgive me eleven seven.
all of you makes more of me
I know that things aren't the same
but we can work it out
just you and me
for the universe is ours
the world belongs to us
no one, no thing
can come between
hollow life offers me a plate
an offer so tempting, so appealing
i couldn't refuse
Oh, forgive my heart, my sin
shoved deep as the arrow into the skin
For I come to know
the spirit runs free within me
needs to flee from captivity
Carpe diem he said, a rube
I had too believe it so
Fie on't, Ah fie, antiquity
a dagger to my soul
Oh, I fall helpless
in hope of a loving embrace
dear one, i know not what i do
forgive me eleven seven.
Today's fellowship was neato. A speaker named Grace (very rad name indeed) from FBCC came to our school to talk to us early in the morning. It was funny. She graduated from Trinity. I was planning on applying there, but I didn't *shrugs*...Anyway...umm
So, she talked about Ten Things I Hate About You...that movie with that one bad actress who plays the older sister and with boys that look like girls. THere was this scene where a guy was introducing the new guy to the "cliques" at school. She says how it applies to Clements so much, even within the Christians. There's the Preppy Christians, the Asian Christians (ie Ghetto-fied Asian Christians), Nerdy Christians...and so on. We stay in little safety circle. We stay in routine of life and limit ourselves to any exploration. In school, cliques are what are "cool". Acceptance at high school is a big thing. I don't know. I never wanted to fit in really. I think i still have the idea that i don't need friends, but i do. I just need to work with God a little bit more. I definitely feel like I am one of a kind. I'm sure there are people who think I'm cold or like distant..but man, if i knew who, i would prove them wrong. Prove them wrong by letting them spend a day with me. They'd want to spend eternity with me. Hehe. Hey, I am a very cool chick.
And she read a excerpt from one of Jim Cymbala's books, Fresh wind? fire? i don't know. Anyway, Jim sees a man isolated from the rest of the congregation in the back of the Sanctuary while he was speaking. Afterwards, as he approached the man, he smelled the most foul smell ever known to his nostrils. As he moved in closer, he realized the smell came from the man himself. The man had not taken a shower, God knows how long, and wore dirty rags that barely clothed him. The preacher reached towards his back pocket for his wallet. The man held his hand in front of him and said, "NO, you don't understand. I don't want your money. I want this Jesus Roberta keeps talking about". Then the man embraced the pastor. What seemed so foul before, had become the most fragrant smell to him by the grace of God. He asked for forgiveness of judging beforehand. *goosebumps* It relates to how lepors of the early days of Jesus ministry had been cast out because of their skin. And Jesus, out of his love for all, touched the man and he was healed. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.......
It was definitely neat how she brought it all together. She did remind me of the power of my words and actions. Very refreshing.
So, she talked about Ten Things I Hate About You...that movie with that one bad actress who plays the older sister and with boys that look like girls. THere was this scene where a guy was introducing the new guy to the "cliques" at school. She says how it applies to Clements so much, even within the Christians. There's the Preppy Christians, the Asian Christians (ie Ghetto-fied Asian Christians), Nerdy Christians...and so on. We stay in little safety circle. We stay in routine of life and limit ourselves to any exploration. In school, cliques are what are "cool". Acceptance at high school is a big thing. I don't know. I never wanted to fit in really. I think i still have the idea that i don't need friends, but i do. I just need to work with God a little bit more. I definitely feel like I am one of a kind. I'm sure there are people who think I'm cold or like distant..but man, if i knew who, i would prove them wrong. Prove them wrong by letting them spend a day with me. They'd want to spend eternity with me. Hehe. Hey, I am a very cool chick.
And she read a excerpt from one of Jim Cymbala's books, Fresh wind? fire? i don't know. Anyway, Jim sees a man isolated from the rest of the congregation in the back of the Sanctuary while he was speaking. Afterwards, as he approached the man, he smelled the most foul smell ever known to his nostrils. As he moved in closer, he realized the smell came from the man himself. The man had not taken a shower, God knows how long, and wore dirty rags that barely clothed him. The preacher reached towards his back pocket for his wallet. The man held his hand in front of him and said, "NO, you don't understand. I don't want your money. I want this Jesus Roberta keeps talking about". Then the man embraced the pastor. What seemed so foul before, had become the most fragrant smell to him by the grace of God. He asked for forgiveness of judging beforehand. *goosebumps* It relates to how lepors of the early days of Jesus ministry had been cast out because of their skin. And Jesus, out of his love for all, touched the man and he was healed. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.......
It was definitely neat how she brought it all together. She did remind me of the power of my words and actions. Very refreshing.
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
Luke 10:38-42
During 5th period, I was trying with all my might to find this passage. It was bothering me the entire time that I couldn't find the story that I've read so many times. Anyway, so, I have to write a paper on Crime and Punishment and how it relates to Theology, specifically to the Russian Orthodoxy. Fun stuff. I like talking about the Bible so maybe for once i'll get a good grade for writing about the Bible. One of the allusions used in Crime and Punishment is Lazarus' resurrection, and I really wanted to see the entire picture of the relationship between Lazarus and Jesus, including Mary and Martha.
AND!! I almost got into a car accident, today. *GASP* it was so crazy. It was out of nowhere. I really think it was divine. I was driving out of the student parking lot. I looked left and right, as everyone is suppose to do, and i thought i was clear after i looked right. BUT a car coming from my left just suddenly appeared, and it swirved to the left, preventing a collision. I was so close to the car that i really did think i was going to hit it. But I didn't. Man, angels were protecting me right then. Very cool.
I had a very odd dream last night. I dreamt that I got unto a metro bus with my mother? i think maybe it was a friend. But anyway, i saw my junior year English teacher seated by the window. I sat quietly by her while she was conversing with my company. After the tension loosened, I asked her what did she think of me as a student. ANd her reply was that i was nothing and was not going to succeed by the looks of what i did in her class. I was smack talked by my teacher. She is very eccentric teacher and speaks the truth about things, very blunt. SO i dunno. Very random dream.
OoOohh....and i may get a job...maybe. My Accounting teacher offered a paying job at a nearby business to the class, and I volunteered to be interviewed. Cross your fingers guys....
During 5th period, I was trying with all my might to find this passage. It was bothering me the entire time that I couldn't find the story that I've read so many times. Anyway, so, I have to write a paper on Crime and Punishment and how it relates to Theology, specifically to the Russian Orthodoxy. Fun stuff. I like talking about the Bible so maybe for once i'll get a good grade for writing about the Bible. One of the allusions used in Crime and Punishment is Lazarus' resurrection, and I really wanted to see the entire picture of the relationship between Lazarus and Jesus, including Mary and Martha.
AND!! I almost got into a car accident, today. *GASP* it was so crazy. It was out of nowhere. I really think it was divine. I was driving out of the student parking lot. I looked left and right, as everyone is suppose to do, and i thought i was clear after i looked right. BUT a car coming from my left just suddenly appeared, and it swirved to the left, preventing a collision. I was so close to the car that i really did think i was going to hit it. But I didn't. Man, angels were protecting me right then. Very cool.
I had a very odd dream last night. I dreamt that I got unto a metro bus with my mother? i think maybe it was a friend. But anyway, i saw my junior year English teacher seated by the window. I sat quietly by her while she was conversing with my company. After the tension loosened, I asked her what did she think of me as a student. ANd her reply was that i was nothing and was not going to succeed by the looks of what i did in her class. I was smack talked by my teacher. She is very eccentric teacher and speaks the truth about things, very blunt. SO i dunno. Very random dream.
OoOohh....and i may get a job...maybe. My Accounting teacher offered a paying job at a nearby business to the class, and I volunteered to be interviewed. Cross your fingers guys....
Monday, November 11, 2002
I took this test like a year ago...=/ or maybe like 9 months ago...9 to 12 months ago...i took this test...for some reason the results are a bit different...
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Moderate |
| Schizoid: | High |
| Schizotypal: | Moderate |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Moderate |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | Low |
| Avoidant: | Moderate |
| Dependent: | Moderate |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
-- Click Here To Take The Test -- | |
Saturday, November 09, 2002
I'm at an internet cafe this lovely Saturday night. Our cable at home ain't working so i don't have online access and that also means no tv either. I feel deprived of my computer. I am, actually. Maybe it's a good thing...getting away from my high speed internet access. So yeah, three dollars for an hour at a public use of computers. blah. This week's weather has been so completely awesome. I love it. It was a great time, freezing my face off. I've always enjoyed cold weather for some reason. I guess since i live in such a HOT, HUMID state, I appreciate coldness so much more.
I also went to Rice today. Spent a couple of hours at the Library doing my homework. I promised God that I would do my best to do my homework only on Saturdays from now on. I felt so cool. I felt like I was one of the students at Rice. It's just like the movies you guys! they casually sit on benches in the courtyard, talking to new acquaintances after the lunch break, or busily working on that paper that's due the next day. I felt so grown up. hehe. Well, anyway, that's my lifestyle next year so i shouldn't be so surprised or whatever.
John 13 - the washing of the disciples' feet by the big cheese, the big man upstairs, the big guy, Jesus Christ. I've been going back to the fellowship at my school early in the morning on Tues and Thurs. It's weird. Maybe it's way too early for some of the kids that go. They don't seem very ecstatic about the word. *shrugs*. I'm pretty sure it's because of the earlyness. It would be cool if we all just got together one day after school and hung out. I dunno. Anyway, the passage was reintroduced to me. I'd forgotten how sweet the message of it really is. It not only shows the idea of being servants no matter what background a person may come from. Just the idea of the meekness of Jesus is...man. That is really neato.
Time to go...going home to eat some hot pot.
I also went to Rice today. Spent a couple of hours at the Library doing my homework. I promised God that I would do my best to do my homework only on Saturdays from now on. I felt so cool. I felt like I was one of the students at Rice. It's just like the movies you guys! they casually sit on benches in the courtyard, talking to new acquaintances after the lunch break, or busily working on that paper that's due the next day. I felt so grown up. hehe. Well, anyway, that's my lifestyle next year so i shouldn't be so surprised or whatever.
John 13 - the washing of the disciples' feet by the big cheese, the big man upstairs, the big guy, Jesus Christ. I've been going back to the fellowship at my school early in the morning on Tues and Thurs. It's weird. Maybe it's way too early for some of the kids that go. They don't seem very ecstatic about the word. *shrugs*. I'm pretty sure it's because of the earlyness. It would be cool if we all just got together one day after school and hung out. I dunno. Anyway, the passage was reintroduced to me. I'd forgotten how sweet the message of it really is. It not only shows the idea of being servants no matter what background a person may come from. Just the idea of the meekness of Jesus is...man. That is really neato.
Time to go...going home to eat some hot pot.
Saturday, November 02, 2002
Thursday, October 31, 2002
[music: Softer to Me - Relient K]
It hasn't occured to me that it is Hallow's Eve tonight.
I had a weird dream yesterday night. My dad was mad at me again. He disowned me. He refused to see me. I left in my car. I drove to the middle nowhere. My warning light that indicated my battery is used up kept shining. I felt very anxious and worried. Praying for my car to just keep driving like Brother Andrew's car. Then i woke up.
I kept thinking about going to school during the day. I hate missing class. I was hoping to get an award for perfect attendance this year =P i guess that aint happening. Rebecca St James, Charlie Hall, Superchick at First Baptist tomorrow night...i wanna go.
It hasn't occured to me that it is Hallow's Eve tonight.
I had a weird dream yesterday night. My dad was mad at me again. He disowned me. He refused to see me. I left in my car. I drove to the middle nowhere. My warning light that indicated my battery is used up kept shining. I felt very anxious and worried. Praying for my car to just keep driving like Brother Andrew's car. Then i woke up.
I kept thinking about going to school during the day. I hate missing class. I was hoping to get an award for perfect attendance this year =P i guess that aint happening. Rebecca St James, Charlie Hall, Superchick at First Baptist tomorrow night...i wanna go.
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