my NEW baby
i am extremely giddy. Along side with my laptop, my guitar, and my boyfriend (jk >.>), I have a new baby.
it won't be long until i name it. THANK yoU! Muah*
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
crappola
i keep forgetting to call them! i need to stick a memo on my arm, CALL HER!
Happy Birthday to Amy Sung, Elaine Yeung, and Aaron Lee. 3 births in one day. nice.
I was reading some of my old posts earlier today. I realized something. I was really hungry!
I was truly hungry for God. When I had first became a believer, I really wanted to get to know Him. I wanted my inner parts to groan for his truth and it really did. I'd read the Bible as much as I could and try to understand things even with my inability to comprehend. My reading skills were never that great, by the way. I'd have to read passages over and over again to understand.
I don't know what happened in between then and now. I want to say that it's someone elses fault. I want to blame someone else. Then i think, there's no one to blame but yourself, Grace. You put yourself in situations. You put yourself in the place for ridicule and deceit.
No.
God has an interesting way of making my life a living hell, huh? God put me in and out of life's difficulties. So i would learn. Just as a baby learns to walk for the first time. He gradually eases his feet maybe a centimeter or an inch! just to reach from his cradle to the bottle on the table, in hope of appeasing his insatiable appetite. And just when he's courageous enough to take a few inches more, he falls! But with strength and will, he slowly reaches for the cradle and pulls himself up, out to try one more time.
I've fallen. I need to get up. I know God is with me. I know he is. Those tears I cry at night, it's because i want him. I know it. I just need to understand. I need to learn to understand. Will i choose to have courage or sit in cowardice?
here's a treat:
Happy Birthday to Amy Sung, Elaine Yeung, and Aaron Lee. 3 births in one day. nice.
I was reading some of my old posts earlier today. I realized something. I was really hungry!
I was truly hungry for God. When I had first became a believer, I really wanted to get to know Him. I wanted my inner parts to groan for his truth and it really did. I'd read the Bible as much as I could and try to understand things even with my inability to comprehend. My reading skills were never that great, by the way. I'd have to read passages over and over again to understand.
I don't know what happened in between then and now. I want to say that it's someone elses fault. I want to blame someone else. Then i think, there's no one to blame but yourself, Grace. You put yourself in situations. You put yourself in the place for ridicule and deceit.
No.
God has an interesting way of making my life a living hell, huh? God put me in and out of life's difficulties. So i would learn. Just as a baby learns to walk for the first time. He gradually eases his feet maybe a centimeter or an inch! just to reach from his cradle to the bottle on the table, in hope of appeasing his insatiable appetite. And just when he's courageous enough to take a few inches more, he falls! But with strength and will, he slowly reaches for the cradle and pulls himself up, out to try one more time.
I've fallen. I need to get up. I know God is with me. I know he is. Those tears I cry at night, it's because i want him. I know it. I just need to understand. I need to learn to understand. Will i choose to have courage or sit in cowardice?
here's a treat:
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
Socially Handicapped.
I ran into Fara and Clara today at Santong. I talked, like really talked to Natalie for the first time. I met new people and could not for the life of me, remember their names.
I've grown somewhat weary of meeting new people in a way. It's either getting to know people that aren't in your immediate circle of friends or conversing in listless chatter that doesn't have much worth to it, in other words, it takes effort. Quite frankly, i'm tired. I think i need a little break from humanity. If i haven't returned your calls or picked up my phone, it means i'm on a break. But i'll get back to you as soon as i'm available to be used again.
Okay, Okay. I'll try not to be bitter.
I'm suppose to be working on my research paper. =) but instead i want to curl up with a nice book in one hand and a cup of mocha in the other.
I've grown somewhat weary of meeting new people in a way. It's either getting to know people that aren't in your immediate circle of friends or conversing in listless chatter that doesn't have much worth to it, in other words, it takes effort. Quite frankly, i'm tired. I think i need a little break from humanity. If i haven't returned your calls or picked up my phone, it means i'm on a break. But i'll get back to you as soon as i'm available to be used again.
Okay, Okay. I'll try not to be bitter.
I'm suppose to be working on my research paper. =) but instead i want to curl up with a nice book in one hand and a cup of mocha in the other.
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Seniority.
I finally realized that i am old. Dah, i played poker for the first time in a lone while tonight. Robert and I played with a few high school students. It consisted mostly in observing and participating in these boys taking our money, well, more of robert's money. They were persistently aggressive. They're not even bluffing, they're just scaring the crap out of you. I think, if the buy-in was 40 and the anti was 10, it would be a different story.
I was also talking to Elaine. We met up for dinner, but it ended up, simply us meeting up to chat. She turns 20 soon. And she vocalized the fact that when you hit 20, there's no significant landmark, like getting in to watch rated-R movies, or the ability to buy cigarettes, or casually walk into the casino. Turning 20, simply means, you're getting old. Oye. I hear my girlfriends, exclaiming to be old at the age of 21 and i didn't understand, but now i do. aiyah.
AND, i think the awkward moment of the day was when the host for the poker game decided to use the restroom and didn't close the door. >.<
I was also talking to Elaine. We met up for dinner, but it ended up, simply us meeting up to chat. She turns 20 soon. And she vocalized the fact that when you hit 20, there's no significant landmark, like getting in to watch rated-R movies, or the ability to buy cigarettes, or casually walk into the casino. Turning 20, simply means, you're getting old. Oye. I hear my girlfriends, exclaiming to be old at the age of 21 and i didn't understand, but now i do. aiyah.
AND, i think the awkward moment of the day was when the host for the poker game decided to use the restroom and didn't close the door. >.<
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Friday, June 03, 2005
women are vicious.
i spent the first half of my day watching television. I can't do this anymore, man. I've been losing brain cells ever since i got back from baylor. But anyways, so i spent the first part of my day watching "the next american top model". I just could not tear myself away from the tv. There was an episode where each contestant had to pose nude for the camera. One of the girls that was from tennessee just refused to take off her clothes because she thought she would have been defiling or degrading her body because her body is "holy and sacred". However, according to the make-up artist, at a previous photo shoot, Robyn, the so-called holy diva, had been jiggling her assets to him. Now, Tyra called her out and lectured her about talking about Jesus, keeping a pure mind and heart, and keeping her body sacred just to turn around and think only for her own benefit, criticizing others, or simply being a hypocrite...
...That's why we get bashed so much.
I have to confess, it's hard to live a pure and holy life. It's hard to think of others more highly than yourself. i know that God didn't say it was easy. But how does the church reach out to the community when there are people out there misrepresenting Jesus? People go overseas. And that's great. Spread the gospel in the motherland. But what about in the states? I think America needs some revival. I need some revival.
Another thing i noticed lately is that life is simply about choice. You choose to take drugs or not. You choose to go to college or not. You choose which college to go to. You choose your major. You choose the blue or red pill.
You choose to believe in Christ. You choose to go to church. You choose to love. You choose to make an impact in someone's life.
the reason why i feel stagnant? is because i choose to be lazy. lol. simply put. Man, i need to get my life into gear.
[by the way, i think the title is irrelevant]
...That's why we get bashed so much.
I have to confess, it's hard to live a pure and holy life. It's hard to think of others more highly than yourself. i know that God didn't say it was easy. But how does the church reach out to the community when there are people out there misrepresenting Jesus? People go overseas. And that's great. Spread the gospel in the motherland. But what about in the states? I think America needs some revival. I need some revival.
Another thing i noticed lately is that life is simply about choice. You choose to take drugs or not. You choose to go to college or not. You choose which college to go to. You choose your major. You choose the blue or red pill.
You choose to believe in Christ. You choose to go to church. You choose to love. You choose to make an impact in someone's life.
the reason why i feel stagnant? is because i choose to be lazy. lol. simply put. Man, i need to get my life into gear.
[by the way, i think the title is irrelevant]
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Parentheses.
beginning of last semester, my life seem to turn towards the greater mark of a parenthesis.
but it has become void of meaning.
it is worse than i expected.
life is boring.
I think, then, at this point, i begin to psychoanalyze why i feel this way. it's because i don't hear from God anymore. it's because i'm depressed. it's because i don't have any friends. it's because i'm not in school. it's because my relationship with my parents are on the rocks. it's because my relationships, in general, are on the rocks. it's because i don't hear from God anymore...
Now why? why, grace? I thought you were semi-spiritual. I mean you talk about God. You praise God in your blogs. You go to church. You lead bible study. You own a bible. You pray, don't you?
...don't you?
I was driving one day. And i began to pray. I prayed for a miracle. It didn't happen. I prayed for salvation in the life of one of my friends. I don't know if that happened, no evidence to verify. Then i realized. I've become my own worst nightmare, i've turned into one of those people who turn to God because i want something. My prayers have grown self-absorbed, conceited, and prideful. How can that be? I only turn to God because i want him to do something for my benefit. Whether it's to make me look better or to help my situations.
i want to be selfless.
i want the content of my parentheses to have meaning.
but how? please help.
but it has become void of meaning.
it is worse than i expected.
life is boring.
I think, then, at this point, i begin to psychoanalyze why i feel this way. it's because i don't hear from God anymore. it's because i'm depressed. it's because i don't have any friends. it's because i'm not in school. it's because my relationship with my parents are on the rocks. it's because my relationships, in general, are on the rocks. it's because i don't hear from God anymore...
Now why? why, grace? I thought you were semi-spiritual. I mean you talk about God. You praise God in your blogs. You go to church. You lead bible study. You own a bible. You pray, don't you?
...don't you?
I was driving one day. And i began to pray. I prayed for a miracle. It didn't happen. I prayed for salvation in the life of one of my friends. I don't know if that happened, no evidence to verify. Then i realized. I've become my own worst nightmare, i've turned into one of those people who turn to God because i want something. My prayers have grown self-absorbed, conceited, and prideful. How can that be? I only turn to God because i want him to do something for my benefit. Whether it's to make me look better or to help my situations.
i want to be selfless.
i want the content of my parentheses to have meaning.
but how? please help.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Reflections.
We went to Cheddar's on Wednesday. I don't remember if it was Richard or Haena, but one of the them made a comment about people changing after they get into a relationship.
That got me to thinking. Have i changed?
I look back and a part of me wants to believe that i've stayed true to my core. To think that i'm the same person coming into college up until now?
i've also been having random thoughts about leadership. Doubts, if you will. Have you ever had those times where you regret, knowing you could have handle situations differently and better?
click here. it seems he'll explain things better than i ever could.
That got me to thinking. Have i changed?
I look back and a part of me wants to believe that i've stayed true to my core. To think that i'm the same person coming into college up until now?
i've also been having random thoughts about leadership. Doubts, if you will. Have you ever had those times where you regret, knowing you could have handle situations differently and better?
click here. it seems he'll explain things better than i ever could.
Friday, May 13, 2005
major bumage.
man, i'm such a bum when i come home. I need to start making to-do lists or something to keep my time occupied.
Monday, May 02, 2005
Dedications
Apphia - i adore you! My Baylor experience has been great because of you. I love that you are a delight to be with. You always seem to know how to brighten my day, by singing a song, making a face, pinching my cheeks or praying for me, asking how i am doing, and simply loving me. I thank God for you Apphia. You are so humble and i can see your love for God resonate through your life.
Jessie - You rock my socks off. Out of all the girls here, i think you are ultimately the coolest. You're so laid back that i question even if i came from california. You have this great ability to look at situations and take the best out of it. I remember i was soo bummed out about volleyball but you stayed and cheered me up.
Andrew - My true older brother. Oye, we've been through a lot. You frustrate me half the time, but i know that deep down you love me. hehe. You've taught me to be responsbile for my actions and fess up to them. Regardless of the crap, i know that you are my friend, always. You have a gift of taking care of people and drawing people near to you. You care for people so much that it freaks me out, but it's definitely God-given.
Aaron - geez. what can i say. You are Aaron. i think you're special. SPECIAL-ED. teehee. no, but Aaron is truly a humble guy. He has been such an encouragement since we've been on leadership. I can see that God has a true grasp on your heart.
Richard - My older bro. I do believe i'll miss our talks on Accounting. Richard is one of a kind. A true soldier to say the least. I still don't believe that you'll be sitting in a cubicle, filling out tax forms for people, but hey, whatever God wants, right? But Richard has a devotion that is phenomenal. He makes God so real in his life, that he makes it real for me.
Ron - the man of two words. hehe. Ron is truly a leader. His love for God is so astounding, it's scary sometimes. I'll always remember the time you consoled me for locking my keys in my trunk (hangs head). It was so simple but it had such a great impact. Your love for God and for people truly amazes me.
Hanna - HAANNAA, my dearest friend. We've been through a lot these last two years. We've grown apart and come close again and again. You've taught me how to express myself and to be myself without fear. You are free-spirited and have a such a strong will. At the same time, i can see that you're growing each day towards God's will. I can't wait to live with you next year, it's going to be awesome.
Kristina - Kris! You are so sweet, caring, beautiful, courageous, strong, humble, and gentle hearted. I have not met anyone like you nor do i think i ever will. I love our late night talks, even the one that lasted until 5 in the morning! Thanks for always being there to pray for me and love me in my most vulnerable moments. You truly are the epitome of friend and sister.
Peter - Peter is everyone's older brother. Thanks for always being there to be a leader. I know that i can count on you to bring everyone together and have everyone's attention because frankly, everyone respects Peter. You have a gift of teaching and encouragement. You always know what to say and have such eloquence in saying it. You have a genuine care about people and that amazes me.
Zoe - My dear sister! Man, you are truly awesome. I love your vulnerability. I cherish the times where you've come to me talk about life or your day. You are so teachable and humble and caring and sweet and list goes on and on. Your joy for life is astounding and has this great effect on people especially me. I hope that God continues to strengthen our relationship into the next year.
Mika - what can i say about this girl? SOO many things! i've seen you grow so much in God and your innocence is wonderful. You inspire me to be a better person. I know that i can always count on you to be there for me to be silly or to talk about life. I can't imagine life without you!
Eva - Nu'er-ah! my sweetie. You have such a giving heart. You're always there to help and take care of people. I know for a fact that whenever i need anything, i can turn to you. At the same time, you are so strong. You have your own mind and am not afraid to speak it.
Jennifer - My Jenjen! Our relationship is so obscure, yet so lovely. I'm so thankful God placed you in my life to keep me accountable in my ways. Yeah, we hardly see each other, but when we do, we have so much to talk about as if we've been lifelong friends. You are so down-to-earth and silly and beautiful and so true to your heart. You never cease to amaze me.
Michael Pham - Pham! this guy is awesome. he cooks! enough said. When a man knows how to cook, he'll succeed in life. Or at least have a very lucky girl. haha. Pham is a man after God's own heart. i love our random conversations in the middle of the night on aim. We can be silly one minute, reminiscing about napoleon dynamite and the next minute, spill our guts about being the scum of the earth and how we need God to send down his wrath to straighten us up.
Elaine - this girl rocks. She's taught me to live life more openly as well as fearlessly. I love it that she makes me feel so comfortable when i'm around her. I can always be truthful with her, even though i know she doesn't necessarily want to hear it. She is probably one of the first people that i've gotten really real with. She has a genuine care for people. Oh! and she is probably the most responsible chick i know. You are to be admired, Elaine.
Phuong - This girl is my girl. I love her so much. I remember the late night talks we had about relationships and God. I still can't forget that one night when i went to your room last year for a sleepover. I thank you for your caring heart and the ways you've comforted me in my most weakest moments. I love you for loving me. You have a strong heart and will. I see God in you, working and kneading in places unimaginable.
Haena - Your joy makes me happy, that's all i can say. You are a great storyteller. I love your stories and how excited you get whenever you get the chance to share. I will never forget the times when we stayed up late talking about life or relationships. I hope that i continue to grow closer with you within the next year. This girl is also so carefree, open, and honest. I love it.
Robert - oppa~! We've come so far. I can't get over the fact that i got to know you so well in the last 6 months. Your foresight into the future amazes me. I don't know anyone else that has the gift of seeing into the future. hehe. You are a true gentleman. I still remember the night where you stayed up late to keep us company even though you didn't have to, and this was even before i really got to know you. I'm excited about this summer. i hope that our relationship continues to flourish in God.
Jessie - You rock my socks off. Out of all the girls here, i think you are ultimately the coolest. You're so laid back that i question even if i came from california. You have this great ability to look at situations and take the best out of it. I remember i was soo bummed out about volleyball but you stayed and cheered me up.
Andrew - My true older brother. Oye, we've been through a lot. You frustrate me half the time, but i know that deep down you love me. hehe. You've taught me to be responsbile for my actions and fess up to them. Regardless of the crap, i know that you are my friend, always. You have a gift of taking care of people and drawing people near to you. You care for people so much that it freaks me out, but it's definitely God-given.
Aaron - geez. what can i say. You are Aaron. i think you're special. SPECIAL-ED. teehee. no, but Aaron is truly a humble guy. He has been such an encouragement since we've been on leadership. I can see that God has a true grasp on your heart.
Richard - My older bro. I do believe i'll miss our talks on Accounting. Richard is one of a kind. A true soldier to say the least. I still don't believe that you'll be sitting in a cubicle, filling out tax forms for people, but hey, whatever God wants, right? But Richard has a devotion that is phenomenal. He makes God so real in his life, that he makes it real for me.
Ron - the man of two words. hehe. Ron is truly a leader. His love for God is so astounding, it's scary sometimes. I'll always remember the time you consoled me for locking my keys in my trunk (hangs head). It was so simple but it had such a great impact. Your love for God and for people truly amazes me.
Hanna - HAANNAA, my dearest friend. We've been through a lot these last two years. We've grown apart and come close again and again. You've taught me how to express myself and to be myself without fear. You are free-spirited and have a such a strong will. At the same time, i can see that you're growing each day towards God's will. I can't wait to live with you next year, it's going to be awesome.
Kristina - Kris! You are so sweet, caring, beautiful, courageous, strong, humble, and gentle hearted. I have not met anyone like you nor do i think i ever will. I love our late night talks, even the one that lasted until 5 in the morning! Thanks for always being there to pray for me and love me in my most vulnerable moments. You truly are the epitome of friend and sister.
Peter - Peter is everyone's older brother. Thanks for always being there to be a leader. I know that i can count on you to bring everyone together and have everyone's attention because frankly, everyone respects Peter. You have a gift of teaching and encouragement. You always know what to say and have such eloquence in saying it. You have a genuine care about people and that amazes me.
Zoe - My dear sister! Man, you are truly awesome. I love your vulnerability. I cherish the times where you've come to me talk about life or your day. You are so teachable and humble and caring and sweet and list goes on and on. Your joy for life is astounding and has this great effect on people especially me. I hope that God continues to strengthen our relationship into the next year.
Mika - what can i say about this girl? SOO many things! i've seen you grow so much in God and your innocence is wonderful. You inspire me to be a better person. I know that i can always count on you to be there for me to be silly or to talk about life. I can't imagine life without you!
Eva - Nu'er-ah! my sweetie. You have such a giving heart. You're always there to help and take care of people. I know for a fact that whenever i need anything, i can turn to you. At the same time, you are so strong. You have your own mind and am not afraid to speak it.
Jennifer - My Jenjen! Our relationship is so obscure, yet so lovely. I'm so thankful God placed you in my life to keep me accountable in my ways. Yeah, we hardly see each other, but when we do, we have so much to talk about as if we've been lifelong friends. You are so down-to-earth and silly and beautiful and so true to your heart. You never cease to amaze me.
Michael Pham - Pham! this guy is awesome. he cooks! enough said. When a man knows how to cook, he'll succeed in life. Or at least have a very lucky girl. haha. Pham is a man after God's own heart. i love our random conversations in the middle of the night on aim. We can be silly one minute, reminiscing about napoleon dynamite and the next minute, spill our guts about being the scum of the earth and how we need God to send down his wrath to straighten us up.
Elaine - this girl rocks. She's taught me to live life more openly as well as fearlessly. I love it that she makes me feel so comfortable when i'm around her. I can always be truthful with her, even though i know she doesn't necessarily want to hear it. She is probably one of the first people that i've gotten really real with. She has a genuine care for people. Oh! and she is probably the most responsible chick i know. You are to be admired, Elaine.
Phuong - This girl is my girl. I love her so much. I remember the late night talks we had about relationships and God. I still can't forget that one night when i went to your room last year for a sleepover. I thank you for your caring heart and the ways you've comforted me in my most weakest moments. I love you for loving me. You have a strong heart and will. I see God in you, working and kneading in places unimaginable.
Haena - Your joy makes me happy, that's all i can say. You are a great storyteller. I love your stories and how excited you get whenever you get the chance to share. I will never forget the times when we stayed up late talking about life or relationships. I hope that i continue to grow closer with you within the next year. This girl is also so carefree, open, and honest. I love it.
Robert - oppa~! We've come so far. I can't get over the fact that i got to know you so well in the last 6 months. Your foresight into the future amazes me. I don't know anyone else that has the gift of seeing into the future. hehe. You are a true gentleman. I still remember the night where you stayed up late to keep us company even though you didn't have to, and this was even before i really got to know you. I'm excited about this summer. i hope that our relationship continues to flourish in God.
April Mayhem.
Every weekend in April was packed. I have been going nonstop listlessly. Oye. But many pictures. Some, from other people's albums. Enjoy! (Trip to Six Flags (4/23) not included)
Steppin' Out (4/2): it was a lot of fun. Me and Aileen were joking around the whole time. We shared a bond in being lazy and letting everyone else do the labor.
Stompfest (4/9): As of right now, i feel Stomp-deprived. It's not the same when you don't see the people you've been practicing for months with. In a matter of minutes, all of our hard work had paid off. It rocked. We had been stifled, for sure.
Semiformal (4/16): Julia, Jessie, and Apphia lookin' pretty.
Hongya and Thomas, straight out of GQ.
Me and Robert <3
yay! girls!
1 month (4/21): lovely.
Last Playground Concert (4/29): Robert, Eric, and Anthony.
Triad (Thomas, Steve, and Jason) and me. Woot.
Trip to Austin (4/30): Howie and Jen. CUUUUTE.
Me and Robert. SURPRISE! He looks funny.
Jen and I. =)
IT'S OVER! The look of delight that the month of APRIL is finally over!
dedications are in process.
Steppin' Out (4/2): it was a lot of fun. Me and Aileen were joking around the whole time. We shared a bond in being lazy and letting everyone else do the labor.
Stompfest (4/9): As of right now, i feel Stomp-deprived. It's not the same when you don't see the people you've been practicing for months with. In a matter of minutes, all of our hard work had paid off. It rocked. We had been stifled, for sure.
Semiformal (4/16): Julia, Jessie, and Apphia lookin' pretty.
Hongya and Thomas, straight out of GQ.
Me and Robert <3
yay! girls!
1 month (4/21): lovely.
Last Playground Concert (4/29): Robert, Eric, and Anthony.
Triad (Thomas, Steve, and Jason) and me. Woot.
Trip to Austin (4/30): Howie and Jen. CUUUUTE.
Me and Robert. SURPRISE! He looks funny.
Jen and I. =)
IT'S OVER! The look of delight that the month of APRIL is finally over!
dedications are in process.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
new look.
Of course, i decided to change my template. Now i reverted back to using blogger's templates. It's nice looking. professional. i like it. Maybe it'll last a little longer...probably not.
I'm listening to john mayer's old cd. It's odd how music can bring back so many old memories. i've been sitting here in my room for the last 3 hours listening to the cd on repeat, remembering my high school days. Nostalgia. how bittersweet it is.
Next week is dead week. My first final is on thursday. My last on monday. can't wait until it is all over. I've been homesick lately. I really want to go home and hug my parents, my brothers, and my dog. hehe. Summer will be uber busy. I'll be taking classes like mad at hcc.
I'm listening to john mayer's old cd. It's odd how music can bring back so many old memories. i've been sitting here in my room for the last 3 hours listening to the cd on repeat, remembering my high school days. Nostalgia. how bittersweet it is.
Next week is dead week. My first final is on thursday. My last on monday. can't wait until it is all over. I've been homesick lately. I really want to go home and hug my parents, my brothers, and my dog. hehe. Summer will be uber busy. I'll be taking classes like mad at hcc.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
oye ve
I'm sick. I'm sneezing, sniffing, and coughing like none other. Please pray i get better before finals.
boo.
But praise God, this weekend will be good.
We're going to Six Flags. Although, i really should just stay and study. aiyah. Nah, i'd rather go play.
g'day friends.
matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
boo.
But praise God, this weekend will be good.
We're going to Six Flags. Although, i really should just stay and study. aiyah. Nah, i'd rather go play.
g'day friends.
matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Desperate need of oxygen.
in the middle of the night, i grasp at my heart feeling it beat after beat as if it was going 80 miles an hour. Once i grabbed at my chest, it felt like my heart was being clenched and squeezed from life. I may die of a heart attack, guys.
i jest.
But seriously, i had the weirdest feeling last night. My heart felt like it was pumping way too hard than need be. Maybe listening to trance music while sleeping does that to you. =P
I've been missing in action (MIA). I haven't blogged since spring break. A lot of different events and feelings have come and gone. I really feel that blogging helps me express my feelings more coherently. So i shall do my best to sound somewhat understandable.
Spring break was fun. I got to hang out with hanna in Houston. We ate a lot! It was quite a binge fest down in houston between the two of us. I guess i wanted for her to have a lot of fun. and eating is fun. so therefore, we had a lot of fun cause we had a lot to eat. Anyway, there was this one night where we went to Karaoke and it was just the two of us. That was a lot of fun. I didn't expect it to be fun because it is just between the two of us, but surprisingly we had a 2 hour sing fest in that big room. I regret not spending much time with Michael. It was cute. He would complain to my mom for my neglecting him.
"Why does Grace have to come back if she doesn't even hang out with us [us being him]?"
Don't worry Michael, once i get back to Houston, you will never have to worry about me not hanging out with you.
Come back for 4 days of school, and Easter Break comes and goes. I went to Dallas for a day. It was quite enjoyable to say the least. We had Dim Sum, went to Eva's place, then Main Event, ate some really good Korean food, and Karaoke again! Around 15 people, give or take a few, that drove from Waco to Dallas and we met up more people in Dallas. It was a really big group so Laser Tag was a lot of fun at Main Event.
...Now crunch time. School is nearly over. I need to buckle down and study.
My brother came into town on Saturday and left after lunch on Sunday. He came to go to church at Antioch. I went to visit the church for the first time as well as to meet him up. Seeing Andy, made me realize how our relationship has manuevered onto the rocks. I don't really interact with my brother. You could say i have a broken relationship with Andy. When he called me to find a place for him and his friends to stay, i felt like he would only call to ask something of me. Granted, he and his friends decided to stay at a motel. I don't know. I'm not ready to love him. But Lord, please help me try.
The sermon was about Integrity by Pastor Jimmy. I couldn't help but feel convicted. I once told myself that i wanted to lead a life of integrity. It doesn't feel like i have been doing so. I mean, i have, but not to the full extent of glorifying God with my heart, body, and soul. A good point that he made was that if we say we abide in Jesus, why don't we walk like him. I want to walk like him and walk with him. I hope for the sake of Jesus.
the end.
i jest.
But seriously, i had the weirdest feeling last night. My heart felt like it was pumping way too hard than need be. Maybe listening to trance music while sleeping does that to you. =P
I've been missing in action (MIA). I haven't blogged since spring break. A lot of different events and feelings have come and gone. I really feel that blogging helps me express my feelings more coherently. So i shall do my best to sound somewhat understandable.
Spring break was fun. I got to hang out with hanna in Houston. We ate a lot! It was quite a binge fest down in houston between the two of us. I guess i wanted for her to have a lot of fun. and eating is fun. so therefore, we had a lot of fun cause we had a lot to eat. Anyway, there was this one night where we went to Karaoke and it was just the two of us. That was a lot of fun. I didn't expect it to be fun because it is just between the two of us, but surprisingly we had a 2 hour sing fest in that big room. I regret not spending much time with Michael. It was cute. He would complain to my mom for my neglecting him.
"Why does Grace have to come back if she doesn't even hang out with us [us being him]?"
Don't worry Michael, once i get back to Houston, you will never have to worry about me not hanging out with you.
Come back for 4 days of school, and Easter Break comes and goes. I went to Dallas for a day. It was quite enjoyable to say the least. We had Dim Sum, went to Eva's place, then Main Event, ate some really good Korean food, and Karaoke again! Around 15 people, give or take a few, that drove from Waco to Dallas and we met up more people in Dallas. It was a really big group so Laser Tag was a lot of fun at Main Event.
...Now crunch time. School is nearly over. I need to buckle down and study.
My brother came into town on Saturday and left after lunch on Sunday. He came to go to church at Antioch. I went to visit the church for the first time as well as to meet him up. Seeing Andy, made me realize how our relationship has manuevered onto the rocks. I don't really interact with my brother. You could say i have a broken relationship with Andy. When he called me to find a place for him and his friends to stay, i felt like he would only call to ask something of me. Granted, he and his friends decided to stay at a motel. I don't know. I'm not ready to love him. But Lord, please help me try.
The sermon was about Integrity by Pastor Jimmy. I couldn't help but feel convicted. I once told myself that i wanted to lead a life of integrity. It doesn't feel like i have been doing so. I mean, i have, but not to the full extent of glorifying God with my heart, body, and soul. A good point that he made was that if we say we abide in Jesus, why don't we walk like him. I want to walk like him and walk with him. I hope for the sake of Jesus.
the end.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Friday, March 11, 2005
Spring Break.
Yes, yes. It's that time of year again.
Everyone enjoy their Spring Break. Have fun. Be safe.
Yesterday, after step practice, i wanted to wish everyone a good Spring Break. I had it all in my head, yell ["Have a good Spring Break!"] Okay good.
Open my door before i left.
"HAVE A SPRING..BRreak?"
i mean, have a good spring break... *hangs head
^__^
Everyone enjoy their Spring Break. Have fun. Be safe.
Yesterday, after step practice, i wanted to wish everyone a good Spring Break. I had it all in my head, yell ["Have a good Spring Break!"] Okay good.
Open my door before i left.
"HAVE A SPRING..BRreak?"
i mean, have a good spring break... *hangs head
^__^
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